Daisy Mae and Charlie Bean
Adoption pic. I fell in love
Little one, my daughters and mine, Daisy Mae. The lab belonged to dad, sis, and nephew. We are neighbors. We are family.
I adopted Daisy to prepare for empty nest - she took my heart and also my daughters, bringing us closer together. They died in freak accident yesterday.
I can't breathe. I cry and I cry. Every step I took was always filled with her shadow. I walk and I cry. I see their crosses out my kitchen window and I cry. My heart is broken. I don't know how to deal with this. I don't know how to go to work tomorrow and focus. I'm mad. I'm sad. I am sick with grief. I need prayer, I need God to give me some relief.
This loss, this feeling, is beyond anything I've ever felt. I'd wake up with her beside me and go to bed the same way.
The joy when she'd see me pull up in drive way as she'd dash my way...everyday my heart spilled over with love for her. I don't know how to do life without her.
Oh Dana, I am so very sad for your loss, and my heart breaks for you. I know how awful it is to lose a beloved dog, naturally and tragically, but two at once... I am so sorry.
Your beloved dogs knew how much you loved them, and it's clear from what you write how much they loved you too. I know it feels impossible to imagine going forward under this crushing loss, but I promise that it will get easier. You just need to permit yourself the time and permission to grieve the way you need to, then there will come a time when you feel ready to face the world again.
There will come a time when you remember them, not without sadness, but with peace as well as love. They are not in pain, not sad, they're together in a good place, I truly believe that. One day, they will be at the Rainbow Bridge, to greet you.
There are so many, oh so many, dogs who never know what it's like to be loved. Not to be hungry, not to be too cold (or too hot), not to be lonely.... the world is literally full of them.
Perhaps one day when your heart is strong enough, you can bring one (or even two) lonely, abandoned and unloved dogs into your life, and show them what love is. It's something we do in our family as a way of honoring a pet who has passed away, and making sure that their life continues to 'pay it forward', in a way it keeps them with us, a never-ending circle.
Sending you my deepest sympathies and a prayer for all three of you ~ Sue