I had to put my beloved Piper to sleep when she was 15 and 1/2 years old. The grief was tremendous. About 3 months later I saw the perfect puppy for me and I got her. I named her BeZe and I brought her home and loved her so very very much. She was my constant companion.
BeZe was only a puppy 11 months old and slipped under my fence chasing a squirrel She was only out of my sight for a minute. She drowned in the neighbors pool. I can't stop grieving. I lost my fur baby that I loved beyond compare. My life is forever changed and I will never stop this horrendous grieving.
I hope I die soon because I can't live without my puppies! Its been almost 5 months of living in a black hole of grief. I want to die.
Terri - I'm so sorry to hear about the loss of both Piper and BeZe, I've lost dogs both through age and by tragic accident and I know how painful it is. However, if you truly feel as though you want to die from the pain, then I urge you to talk to someone close to you, or even a doctor, and ask for help. No matter the length of their lives, both your dogs were loved beyond compare and were happy - because of the love and care you gave them. They wouldn't want you to be so sad.
Time doesn't make the pain go away, but it does make it manageable and one day you will be able to think of them without this heart-wrenching distress. We never know what the future holds, and no other dog can replace the one/s you miss, but perhaps there is another little dog out there who is lonely and sad, as you are, and maybe you could help each other get past this grief. Even if you don't ever want another dog, please talk to someone face-to-face so that you can start to feel better. I wish you all the best and will say a prayer for you. God Bless